All About John . . . or What Scooby-Doo Taught Me about my Ghosts
My novels and much of my short fiction are about chasing ghosts and peeling off masks. I have Hanna-Barbera to thank for that.
As a kid, I would dash home from school, grab a packet of Pop-Tarts and a bottle of Mountain Dew, and scurry to the living room as that all-too-familiar jingle heralded my favorite show on TV--Scooby-Doo, Where Are You? I loved this show with such furor, such unadulterated pleasure. I loved it because Scooby and Shaggy were believers. They believed in the Creeper and the Snow Ghost, the Miner 49er and the Witchdoctor even though time and time again, the mask would be ripped off, and the gloriously paranormal would be reduced to some schmuck in a suit. You see, I wanted to believe in ghosts, too.
My father, for the eight short years that I knew him, loomed large--the model by which I was expected to mold myself. When he died, I was left with a phantom, an outline of a man. Out of that void burgeoned my desire to write. My early compulsion to tell stories sprung from a need to fill in his outline. If I figured out who he was, I thought, I would figure out who I was. However, unlike the Scooby-Doo villains, he stubbornly refused to relinquish his mask, and I was at a loss.
Throughout boarding school, college, and graduate school, I continued chasing his ghost, but the more I scrambled after him, the more I realized it wasn't my father I was hoping to booby-trap and unveil, but myself. During this time I married, began teaching high school English, bought a house, adopted two dogs, and established a conventional existence. Then, much like hapless Scooby and Shaggy, I ensnared my own ghost and ripped the mask off--I came out of the closet, was divorced, and started living and writing truer to myself.
Now, I pursue my phantoms as psychological metaphors, removing layers of deception and misdirection to unveil the truth about my characters, instead of ripping off goofy latex masks.
My Favorite Writers
Virginia Woolf
W. Somerset Maugham
Margaret Atwood
Iris Murdoch
Raymond Chandler
Patricia Highsmith
Yiyun Li
A. S. Byatt
Flannery O'Connor
Ian McEwan
Agatha Christie
William Shakespeare
Kazuo Ishaguro
William Wordsworth
John Fowles
Awards and Publications
2004. First Runner-up
Spring 2004
Summer, 2004
Voices, 2003.
Awarded for excellence in fiction at
George Mason University.
Education